Living with a Brain Tumor!

With God ALL things are possible!
O My Where does one begin? How do you explain your Man is slowly deteriorating before your very eyes? Each day has its own challenges, most days we coast right along with out a glitch, going about our daily business, "then! we are "blatantly reminded" we have an "intruder vying for position" over Dad's brain! 
This Brain Tumor will stop at nothing to "violate His thinking", "His motor skills", "His speech", 
"His bodily functions", doing the simplest tasks can become very frustrating, 
Having an understanding of what Dad is going through is very important  in that there are symptoms that are evident in His behavior, attitude, body, {"I have never had to live with a brain tumor"}! 
Seizures are a common initial symptom of Brain tumors. Dad's seizures are now turning into 
{grand mal } seizures, limited to only a portion of the his body (for example, involuntary shaking of one arm or leg) His face, and  throat  uncontrollably  re flexing, contracting, causing the jaw to bear down with great force, restricting air flow to breath, total loss of speech and numbness on his left side of  face causing total paralysis during the seizure.
He has bitten his tongue from lack of feeling, he's having  trouble finding the correct words to express his thoughts, loss of initiative, tired, moodiness and irritable when around to many people, we're finding that crowds are becoming overwhelming, these things are becoming more prevalent! The other day we went on a boat ride after having company over the weekend,  my husband was struggling, he was done............
I realize more today that Ron's safe zone is Home! {"To protect people from Ron and to protect Ron from people"}!  for a lack of understanding! 

My Love and responsibility is to my Husband,     "The simpler our life the better".
I now realize it has been going in this direction slowly, the Lord has His ways of getting our attention and keeping our eyes on Him, the question is are we paying attention? And are we responding to His calling? 
I can honestly say, Jesus is constantly keeping us hemmed in closer and closer to Himself, our daily walk gets sweeter and sweeter each day,as we choose to seek the Lord  through His word and prayer,
we absolutely could not do this with out our Faith and Trust in God alone,
"what strength"! The Lord gives us to endure each struggle and overcome the trials that grows our faith greater each day in Him , it doesn't matter how hard things will get,we know our comforter is covering us! 
We pray for a miracle of healing,--------- but I would have to say the greatest miracle is the healing from the inside out that is happening in my Man! 
God gives us "this life" this side of heaven to get "all" of our life in order, "everything has to go"!"no stones" left UN turned--! before we meet Him face to face- we take up our cross and follow Jesus!
we understand this more today in our lives---- 
"it took a brain tumor"--- I suppose, to "excel" this understanding, 
{it's a daily discipline to come into agreement with God's will,word and ways} to live life any other way would be spiritual suicide and great loss! We make a choice,-------with Him---with out Him---
when we stand before Jesus this life is over! opportunities to change our life or make it right are final,done! We say have thine own way Lord, your the Potter we are the clay! 

Each day we’re confronted with situations that require a discerning spirit. We live in a world that mixes truth with error and attempts to blur the line between good and evil. But as children of God, we can be protected from deception. By knowing the Father’s purpose for our lives—and walking in the "center of His will"—we’ll learn to recognize the choices that are best and most pleasing to Him. Thankfully, everything we need
for spiritual discernment is available through the Holy Spirit’s guidance, the written Word of God, and Prayer 
when we acknowledge our Lord Jesus, the One who leads us in all truth,-----
we begin to stop looking to the {left and to the right} and walk  the straight path---- the Lord has already made straight.
What a privilege to know we have such a big God,  we can lay our hearts bare before Him, share our deepest concerns, know nothing is to hard for the Lord ,nothing surprises Him about our weaknesses.our frailty 
O Father your unfailing love is too wonderful, You take care of  us, Your mercy is so plentiful. Your love is better than life, and as long as we have breath our lips will glorify, honor and praise you Father. "Your grace is all we need, it is sufficient. Your power works best in our weakness."  What a friend we have in Jesus Bless  you Lord