Living with a Brain Tumor!

With God ALL things are possible!
O My Where does one begin? How do you explain your Man is slowly deteriorating before your very eyes? Each day has its own challenges, most days we coast right along with out a glitch, going about our daily business, "then! we are "blatantly reminded" we have an "intruder vying for position" over Dad's brain! 
This Brain Tumor will stop at nothing to "violate His thinking", "His motor skills", "His speech", 
"His bodily functions", doing the simplest tasks can become very frustrating, 
Having an understanding of what Dad is going through is very important  in that there are symptoms that are evident in His behavior, attitude, body, {"I have never had to live with a brain tumor"}! 
Seizures are a common initial symptom of Brain tumors. Dad's seizures are now turning into 
{grand mal } seizures, limited to only a portion of the his body (for example, involuntary shaking of one arm or leg) His face, and  throat  uncontrollably  re flexing, contracting, causing the jaw to bear down with great force, restricting air flow to breath, total loss of speech and numbness on his left side of  face causing total paralysis during the seizure.
He has bitten his tongue from lack of feeling, he's having  trouble finding the correct words to express his thoughts, loss of initiative, tired, moodiness and irritable when around to many people, we're finding that crowds are becoming overwhelming, these things are becoming more prevalent! The other day we went on a boat ride after having company over the weekend,  my husband was struggling, he was done............
I realize more today that Ron's safe zone is Home! {"To protect people from Ron and to protect Ron from people"}!  for a lack of understanding! 

My Love and responsibility is to my Husband,     "The simpler our life the better".
I now realize it has been going in this direction slowly, the Lord has His ways of getting our attention and keeping our eyes on Him, the question is are we paying attention? And are we responding to His calling? 
I can honestly say, Jesus is constantly keeping us hemmed in closer and closer to Himself, our daily walk gets sweeter and sweeter each day,as we choose to seek the Lord  through His word and prayer,
we absolutely could not do this with out our Faith and Trust in God alone,
"what strength"! The Lord gives us to endure each struggle and overcome the trials that grows our faith greater each day in Him , it doesn't matter how hard things will get,we know our comforter is covering us! 
We pray for a miracle of healing,--------- but I would have to say the greatest miracle is the healing from the inside out that is happening in my Man! 
God gives us "this life" this side of heaven to get "all" of our life in order, "everything has to go"!"no stones" left UN turned--! before we meet Him face to face- we take up our cross and follow Jesus!
we understand this more today in our lives---- 
"it took a brain tumor"--- I suppose, to "excel" this understanding, 
{it's a daily discipline to come into agreement with God's will,word and ways} to live life any other way would be spiritual suicide and great loss! We make a choice,-------with Him---with out Him---
when we stand before Jesus this life is over! opportunities to change our life or make it right are final,done! We say have thine own way Lord, your the Potter we are the clay! 

Each day we’re confronted with situations that require a discerning spirit. We live in a world that mixes truth with error and attempts to blur the line between good and evil. But as children of God, we can be protected from deception. By knowing the Father’s purpose for our lives—and walking in the "center of His will"—we’ll learn to recognize the choices that are best and most pleasing to Him. Thankfully, everything we need
for spiritual discernment is available through the Holy Spirit’s guidance, the written Word of God, and Prayer 
when we acknowledge our Lord Jesus, the One who leads us in all truth,-----
we begin to stop looking to the {left and to the right} and walk  the straight path---- the Lord has already made straight.
What a privilege to know we have such a big God,  we can lay our hearts bare before Him, share our deepest concerns, know nothing is to hard for the Lord ,nothing surprises Him about our weaknesses.our frailty 
O Father your unfailing love is too wonderful, You take care of  us, Your mercy is so plentiful. Your love is better than life, and as long as we have breath our lips will glorify, honor and praise you Father. "Your grace is all we need, it is sufficient. Your power works best in our weakness."  What a friend we have in Jesus Bless  you Lord

A CONSPIRACY OF INTERRUPTIONS

With God ALL things are possible!
I wanted to share, what was shared with me, 

All hell quakes at the effectual, fervent prayer of a single believer. The

powerful praying of just one intercessor sounds like raging thunder in the
caverns of the damned. Not one inch of space in hell remains unaffected by a
believer who denies himself, takes up his cross, and follows Christ with his
whole heart.

Yet, we must remember: The soul that cries out with agonizing yearnings for
depth in Christ will become the central focus of Satan's conspiracy of
interruptions.

A pastor wrote to me, saying, "My greatest battle is not with some secret sin of the flesh but with maintaining a consistent life of prayer and study in
God's Word! Satan rarely tempts me with sexual sin, but he gets me so busy with the daily affairs of life that my times for prayer and study are crowded out. I don't allow this to happen intentionally but I get caught up in all kinds of projects and interruptions. This cycle is repeated over and over and Satan is robbing me of my time with God."

Like millions of other sincere Christians, this dear pastor is the victim of a
demonic conspiracy of interruptions. And the devil's chief target in these
attacks is the secret closet of prayer. So, how does the devil keep believers
out of this fearsome, secret place? Does he entice with erotic images, soothing thoughts of escape through alcohol or drugs, or dreams of fame and prosperity?

No, never! The devil knows that the person in union with Christ will not be
tempted by such vulgarity. Instead, the old fox seeks to interrupt and hinder a
believer's every attempt to enter the presence of God and study His Word.

Communion in prayer and the study of God's Word cannot be optional. Your
thought should not be merely that you ought to pray but that you cannot survive without prayer. Job declared, "I have esteemed the words of his mouth more than my necessary food" (Job 23:12).

Only when prayer becomes important enough will you make the time to do it!

A CONSPIRACY OF INTERRUPTIONS
by David Wilkerson
[May 19, 1931 - April 27, 2011]

This is the Day of Salvation! To God be ALL the Glory!

Sunday September 2nd 2012 ----Lives were publicly professing their faith in Jesus Christ, having been buried with him in baptism and raised with him through your faith in the power of God, who raised him from the dead.Colossians 2:12

We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.Romans 6:4

Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.Romans 12:2

Put on your new nature, created to be like God--truly righteous and holy.

Ephesians 4:24

Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth.

Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do.This is my command--be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. Proverbs 9;10

My mouth will tell of your righteousness, of your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure. Since my youth, O God, you have taught me, and to this day I declare your marvelous deeds.

Psalms 71

We will not hide these truths from our children; we will tell the next generation about the glorious deeds of the LORD, about his power and his mighty wonders.

Psalms 78

Protect,Guard,shield,set apart these young people,for your glory

Amen

 

With God ALL things are possible!

The Lords sweet tasty morsals He loves to show us in a day!

With God ALL things are possible!

Today I picked Black Berry's Who likes Black Berry's? Who know's what you may have to go through to get those berry's? Berry wounds! Thorn's, lot's of thorns, big one's tiny ones,sharp ones, big vines ripping at your skin, tiny vines entangling you when you walk, 
prick here! ouch! there.....And sometimes you stretch so far to get those berry's that may not get picked if you don't give that extra stretch! And last but not least you can pick a bucket full of Berry's and slip off the ladder and loose them all!
Well I geared myself up,long sleeve shirt, pant's and shoes...............on a beautiful hot summer Sept day .......
I got my ladders,buckets and 2 flats.............I'm ready! 
I scope out the area look to where I'm going to start pic kin.....and see the bushes have been raided! 
Oh Man!----------- Lord you know I want to get some berry's. so I keep loooooookin..........
 I see many berry's high up out of reach----so as I lay my ladder in the bush.........
Ok Lord you know I'm a good slipper offerer........hold me steady-----
whoaaaaaaa---- nelly here she goes............the weight of my body pushes the ladder in......... and guess what ?-------"BERRY'S" lot's of berry's, big berry's----- beautiful berry's,------Plump Berry's.......................................
thank you! thank you Lord for these Black berry's -------------- 
Ron came walking down after awhile later and helped me pick, a little more---- 
we were so blessed to take home Black berry's  and our berry "wounds"
Berry's  Berry s lots a berry's  we look forward to this time of year to pick our Black berry's, I'm just thankful their were some left!!!!!!!!
Black berry pie, black berry Jam ,black berry cobbler, black berry coffee cake, black berry over Vanilla bean Ice cream, I'm sure there's many more black berry favorites!
We are so Blessed on this Island to have the freedom to pick such  bounty, 
Thank you Jesus for providing this sweet tasty pleasure and Bounty. Apples are next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did I say Apples are next?  

We will soar on wings like eagles!

With God all things are possible!

 When our Son and His Family were visiting He took these shots of this eagle, 
 When I Look at an eagle their wing span is wide,their bodies strong,very watchful of what is below them, over seeing as they sit high above, their target intentional!
Isaiah 40:31
But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. 
this is God's Promise,
God's Word is so beautiful,powerful active and alive, 
In these frail human bodies we get tired, beat up from life, pressing on just to keep on keepin on, trusting in the Lord is our patient expectation that our Lord Jesus Christ will fulfill His promises in His word and strengthen us to rise above life's difficulties. 
Our Lord's strength is our greatest source of strength. As I sat outside today I just looked up! Amazing how calming it is when you just look up,I stared at the clouds and just took in what a beautiful landscape the sky displayed, and blessed the Lord for His Beauty!
His redemption draws near............................Today So many are hurting, So many so sick, So many tired from the enduring  fight with disease. So many beaten down from the daily grind, My heart ached for all we know who are suffering physically,and all I could do is weep for them and lift them up before the Lord.
2 Corinthians 4:8,9
Tho We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair.We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed,Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.
we keep running this race with endurance,with the power of the Holy Spirit with in us,keeping our eyes on you Jesus, and no matter how great the suffering,Lord grow and develop patience,maturity and greater faith in us as we hold on tightly to your hand, help us to hear only your voice,and seek you 1st-------have you will and your way in our lives,so our final victory will be so sweet when we see you face to face.  

Count your many Blessings,Name them one by one!

With God all things are Possible!

My Man Mr C today is our 37th wedding  anniversary

I'm Mrs C Blessed to be Married to this man for 37 years

Sasha ,                     Ella                                Nyah

Ella Koa Divine Cuellar 5 months old

Nyah Bless Cuellar 4 years old

Mama Viana, Baby Ella, Sasha,Nyah, Papa Ronnie,

Sasha Blaze Cuellar 2 years old

Elijah Mosiah Cuellar 13 years old

Nathan and Sidjae Cuellar

Nathan,Sidjae,Baby Jewel

Jewel London Cuellar 16 months old Nathan and Sidjaes baby

Praise you Father God for the Gift and many Blessings you have showered us with, you gave us this precious Beautiful family, Our Prayer is that you oh Father become there greatest inheritance,and that if there be any legacy we could leave behind that it would be how much we love, worship and praise,and honor you! desiring that not one of our family or the blood of our blood leave this earth with out coming into relationship personally with you, proclaiming you as Lord and king of their lives generation after generation.
Thank you Jesus for allowing us to have "37 years" of marriage, we celebrate you Lord Jesus!
It is only by your hand of Mercy and Grace that Ron's life is extended to celebrate today!
 With God ALL things are possible!