Yea! our Son Nathan, wife Sidjae and Baby Jewel are coming to visit.

Papa N8 and Baby Jewel

Mama Sidjae and Baby Jewel

Baby Jewel and Mama Sidjae

Papa Nathan Baby Jewel

Sidjae

With the Living God all things are possible

With God ALL things are possible!
With all the Compassion, kindness,gentleness,tenderness,carefulness, Love, and most of all 
"God's Holy Wisdom"  
I want to give some understanding to why Ron and I have chosen to go in


 the direction of making  decisions that make "no sense" too "common sense"! 


Here's a brief understanding and overview of Ron's condition: 
Ron was diagnosed with an "inoperable brain tumor" 2009 
this means   "Unsuitable for a surgical procedure" the tumor has infiltrated Ron's brain. 
It is apart of Ron's Brain. 
Ron has an {"Oligodendroglioma Grade 3  malignant tumor"}.


 Oligodendroglioma is an uncommon type of primary brain tumor that comprises about 3 percent of all primary brain tumors diagnosed in the United States. 
Oligodendrogliomas contain cells that resemble normal oligodendrocytes but are more rapidly growing than normal cells. 
Like other brain tumor types, oligodendrogliomas are graded on a grade I-IV scale, with IV the worst. 
Grade III oligodendroglioma, synonymous with anaplastic oligodendroglioma, typically grows more quickly. 
While some oligodendrogliomas are not malignant, they all have the potential to be.
Oligodendroglioma can affect parts of the brain that control "speech, vision" or motor functions. For this reason, surgery may be associated with the "risk of disability" 
Treating oligodendroglioma is a complex process, requiring a variety of techniques and procedures.


After numerous trips to Ron's Neurosurgeon, Neurologist, for the past 2 years and them keeping a close watch on the growth of Ron's tumor, they can do nothing for Ron, so by the size of Ron's tumor they know what will happen, so after a "wait and see approach", These Dr's referred Ron to a specialist who specializes in Brain tumors, after seeing the specialist, "the surgery could be done",
{"not to cure Ron"} not to remove all of the tumor"},
BUT only to De-bulk the tumor {take out what they could} from putting pressure on Ron's brain, and causing the Neurological damage it will do.
   
Possible risks of brain surgery are:

• Surgery on any one area of the brain may cause problems with speech, memory, muscle weakness,  balance, vision, coordination, and other functions. 
• These problems "may last a short while or they may not go away".
• Blood clot or bleeding in the brain
• Seizures
• Stroke
• Coma
• Infection in the brain, in the wound, or in the skull
• Brain swelling
• Death

Treatment is a must after the surgery---- Radiation and chemo, Physical therapy, speech therapy, and more Chemo, and the High probability of the tumor growing back and another surgery! And repeating the above. 

Ron and I know that "Life is a gift"  we do not take this lightly, or for granted, if anything life is very precious, and while My Man has His Mind to "think clearly" and "make clear decisions"  this decision has been made according to  a "Peace"  that "only" the Lord can give us in "not proceeding" with this surgery. 

  
The Lord has been so incredibly amazing in our Lives the past 2-1/2 years doing a great work in Ron and My life that has pressed us in closer to Jesus,causing us to look at our walk with the Lord even more intimately. There is no way for us by our own efforts to reach God's High standards, but He graciously accepts us, forgives us, and draws us  in closer with himself. We have personal and intimate communion with Him Daily. 
It is an awesome privilege to be able to approach God with Freedom and confidence. 
ONLY because of Jesus Christ and the finished work He did on the cross for us, and by our faith we can enter directly into God's presence through Prayer and thanksgiving, 
Ron and I know we will be welcomed with open arms because we are God's kids,through our union with Jesus Christ. God wants us to come to Him  and talk to Him about everything in our lives,God is always waiting so patiently! We put our lives in His hands and completely trust him in how He shows us through His word, walking by faith one step at a time.Our part is to be faithful in trusting in what God is leading and showing us, and being anxious for nothing. Does this come naturally? NO!!!!!! Only by God's super natural hand over us can we walk this walk hand in hand with Jesus and by the Power of God's spirit in us empowering us to walk through what ever life throws at us.


Ron and I it seems any more will take what opportunity we can to experience what the Lord is doing around us through his hand of creation we Love seeing and in this case hearing and seeing God at work in the heavens! 
I was awakened by a loud explosion................I laid there and went,,,,,,,,WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
it was "thunder"..... so I laid my hand on Dad and he woke up then the sky lit up!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got up and sat by the window to see some more,{"Dad said lets go see this"}! here we are 3:30 in the morning "STORM CHASERS"...................skys lighting up........ toooly fog low to the ground thunder rolling,and then "HAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes "HAIL"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then on our way home this now is about 4:45 we drive down by the Marina, the water is as still as a pond their walks our Dear friend,we say our good mornings and Bless him while He's off on the water,what a wonderful way to start the day. Glorifying the Lord and seeing our Brother  in Jesus!


He fills his hands with lightning and commands it to strike its mark.He unleashes his lightning beneath the whole heaven and sends it to the ends of the earth.He loads the clouds with moisture; he scatters his lightning through them.lightning and hail, snow and clouds, stormy winds that do his bidding,Out of the brightness of his presence clouds advanced,Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind, your lightning lit up the world; the earth trembled and quaked. with hailstones and bolts of lightning His splendor was like the sunrise; rays flashed from his hand, where his power was hidden.
-Job 36-37-Psalms 148--18 Hab 3 
Our God is an awesome God there is no one like Him! No one .Bless you Lord with all my soul,I Love you Jesus thank you for the sunrise.
Eternity to those who acknowledge Jesus Christ as the Truth the way and the Life is a day that has no sunset.
Eternity for those who do not acknowledge Jesus Christ as the way the Truth and the life is a day with no sunrise! Our days on earth are like a passing shadow,gone so soon with out a trace. Nothing lasts unless it is rooted in God's unchanging character, Relationship only in Christ Jesus can we find everlasting life and a peace that passes our understanding.Good Morning Lord,and a beautiful one you  have given. Our Life is in Our Masters Hands.
Thank you for all your Prayers over us,we so 
greatly appreciate you.

My Heart is Overwhelmed,by God's Sweet Presence

My Man Ron

With God ALL things are possible! 
A Beautiful day on the San Juan Islands,the Lord is so sweet and so beautiful in "ALL HIS WAYS" Ron and I started our day out as we Love doing, Put the coffee on and sit with Our Lord Jesus spending time with Him Basking in His presence, got showered had a bite to eat,went for our morning walk into town, we have been parking the car a little closer to town, due to any surprises that may occur with Ron, but today we parked it a little farther away,{can't do this any more} Jensen's ship yard-----thinking we could get a little more exercise in,we love walking into town,stoppin in seeing friends,wishing a good morning to passerbyer's,  looking at the boats, and welcome any opportunity the Lord opens up, we were out on the farthest pier and Ron started not feeling good we got back to the upper dock and He said He didn't think he could make it to the car,I told Him I would run and get the car,He stopped me and said I'm calling Marty,"His truck is parked here" {I would be able to run Ron home},Marty was in a no cell zone------so my message was cuttin in and out--------------------so I said to Ron you stay, 
RIGHT HERE! DON'T MOVE! and I took off running I was Praying the whole time Lord please don't let me fall, please don't let my legs cramp, please keep me strong, Please be over Dad,Please Lord get me to the truck fast! thank you Lord, Be over Dad, thank you Lord, and as I'm running, 
Oh Dear sweet Jesus,there is this precious, precious, " Hanna" I think I said I need a ride she said with this strong affirmative voice get in! "I was so out of breathe" because I'm so out of shape" ................. She said where do I need to take you....................Jensen's.......................Ship yard............................ this precious Young Woman started praying over me! ............... It's crazy how the adrenalin works in our bodies, we know we have something we HAVE to do and nothing will stop us from getting it done, but I gotta tell you Hanna was a blessing to me at that moment,I was safe...............and I was ok..............
I saw the Fathers hand all over this whole situation.......................I thanked her, thanked her....and was off............................I had to get to Ron................. all I could do was praise God for the Divine help...........I was Praising Him as I was driving back to find my Man,
I saw right then How God was working "out on the water", a desperate cry went out to a Marty who could do nothing to Help me or Ron, Cause he was on a boat!............. 
{"God used Marty from the water"} "Lord only knew where Marty was" and from us cutting in and out Marty put it together--------and called His Daughter Hanna.she just happened to be in town....................... God Is Mighty to save!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Friendship is a privilege to know,we are Blessed!  
In my distress I cried Out to the Lord he heard my cry Psalms 18:6 I realized more today, God is preparing me, us, no matter what the storm looks like My God is with me! God chooses to use who ever He wills...............and it does not matter how "far away help seems" "God  goes forth"------  God holds all things together! It's done! Praise you Jesus!
Hanna followed me back to town, I'm telling you this gal was on the front line! we scattered when Ron was not where He was supposed to be............... I was looking in the bathrooms yelling Dad!--------{Poor men--- I think I scared them}---------when He wasn't in any of them I panicked................. Hanna said did you go into the bathrooms? I said I opened the door and called for Him, >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> next thing I knew a man said where can I look,I again looked at the Lord and knew God your on this...................I ran down to one more bathroom Ron was not there.........I said God I don't know where He is....................Please help me.......................
I saw Hanna this Precious Gal, Her face, {the tears just keep coming as I write just looking back at the events of this morning and the people involved}---- I heard her call my name and she said Ron's here.............................so much was going through my mind so much happening so fast, I realized again,God this young Lady was not going to stop until we were totally good,Oh the Love of God is How He wills it through who ever He chooses to use. {Ron had to move}from where we had agreed .............There are things that this tumor will do to Ron that are unexpected....................things out of His Control.... Seizures will come on how ever they want vertigo,there is no warning,and His body is starting to show new and different attacks that we are now having to pay close attention to. He was just telling me when we were walking into town that His left hand was to weak to carry His sweatshirt. This is one of the Neurological damages of the tumor that will start to take place,....... Hanna offered to get our truck, so sweet ,so kind, so willing to do what ever, I Love this Girl, I've always loved her since we known her but there is an even greater Love,"Today" she Blessed Me in ways "God only knows how much"..................as I ran to get the car I see another friend,Alexis -"Sandie were looking for Ron______ I said He's found,I kept running to the car she came over and at that point I was done, Lexy Prayed over me I thanked Her, 
Father God Bless these precious People who gave of themselves and time to Help Ron and I, {your Love is so evident}, and your merciful hand is always over us. The Lord has Heightened and even Higher sensitivity,He's in charge over all in our Lives,and If Ron and I thought we were alone, He showed us differently today........................I have so much gratitude in my Heart, I pray I am just as quick to respond when there is a need! My Heart is grateful Ron is ok now resting and taking it easy, each day has enough in it that we don't look to far down the road, we take only today and give it to the Lord and thank Him for this day how ever it looks and give all the Glory and acknowledgement to His Precious Grace and Mercy for allowing us to have another day In Jesus name. I know we are not promised tomorrow, and we do not know when our last breath will be taken, Ron and My hope is in Jesus, and how ever the Lord allows us to work out our salvation today we commit this day to Him, and pray He be glorified through it all. As I have said in past blogs I will never be prepared for the day the Lord chooses to take My Man, But as long as the Lord allows His life to be sustained I Pray our lives are pleasing to our Father in Heaven, our Marriage continually is strengthened, in Christ Jesus, Our lives be constantly purified through the refiners fire, molded and shaped,to our Lords will, leaving nothing to be desired in this life or more valued than God himself. Thank you Lord for your Holy Spirits comfort and strength, thank you for having every event that took place today covered by your Divine super natural, all knowing, presence. You put into action, each person at the exact time at the right place,at the right moment. Thank you Jesus. I Love this song It says what my heart is saying

Ron's Brain Tumor,Stage 3 Cancer


So many times I've questioned certain circumstances

Or things I could not understand
Many times in trials, weakness blurs my vision
And my frustrations get so out of hand
It’s then I am reminded I’ve never been forsaken
I’ve never had to stand the test alone
As I look at all the victories, the Spirit rises up in me
It’s through the fire my weakness is made strong

And He never promised the cross would not get heavy and the hill would not be hard to climb
He never offered victory without fighting but He said help would always come in time
Just remember when you’re standing in the valley of decision and the adversary says give in
Just hold on, our Lord will show up and He will take you through the fire again

I know within myself that I would surely perish
But if I trust the hand of God, He’ll shield the flames again

And He never promised the cross would not get heavy and the hill would not be hard to climb
Just hold on, our Lord will show up and He will take you through the fire again
Just hold on, our Lord will show up and He will take you through the fire again 

God is always in Control!

Is this young buck beautiful or what?

He was eating outside our kitchen window and gave me a quick pose

Beautiful Schooner out on the water

Another Beautiful Schooner out on the water

Mr C taking a rest on the boat enjoying the day the Lord has given

                                                                                                                                                                                       

With God all things are Possible!

We are thanking the Lord for giving us another Glorious morning. Ron and I love our mornings the most, having a cup of coffee and sitting with the Lord,

God is so gracious in how His word will speak to us individually,showing us areas of our lives that we have asked the Lord to refine,purify,restore,heal,strip away,  then we ask each other to pray specifically over each other about those things the Lord has revealed to us through His word,  ...................................we are the "Church" One Body in Christ Jesus, having fellowship with each other,confessing to one another,coming into alignment and agreement with God's word according to scripture,God is beyond so good,so sweet so gentle,so kind,He is so beautiful.............I Love this time, and openness! 

Ron has been having more seizures than we like, a blood vessel burst in his left eye which was unusual, it slowly went away, we've noticed he has been having slight difficulty in forming His words and sentences, but not making it a focus, praying this will pass, His mind praise God is alert, and at times short memory can be effected, but this to is something we do not focus on. 

I Love this man! 

I Love this Man! 

He makes me laugh so hard, 

I Love how he makes me laugh, he can be so funny at times, 

I Love most of all "His humility" that the Lord is forming, molding and shaping in Him, Only the Lord could do this! 

I Love the "transparency', the desire to be in God's will no matter how "painful the process",and how "difficult the change",this man only wants to 'Please the Lord", and while Ron is still on this earth he knows this is the only chance he will have to allow God to have His way and will in His life. 

We each know the stubborn side of our encumbrances,our shortcomings, our weaknesses, Our Lord Jesus will set us free one by one as we lay them down! 

The spirit is willing but the flesh is not! 

This does not come naturally so we call on the "super natural" {God Almighty}......,this is a daily discipline,

I guarantee you if we are not clothed in Christ daily, '"we are a big huge dodo target for the enemy"! no Lie! 

Father is so good to reveal and give us opportunity to give it up!Lay it down! 

My Prayer for {My man} and myself and the Church at large is that we live to Glorify Jesus in everything we do and say, we realize our life is not our own, and we will stand before the Lord and give account for how we lived this life! so as we live in this world,we are fighting against the spirit that lives with in us and the flesh that wants flesh out!.......................and satisfy itself! -------oh how it wants to rule....................................Oh God help us endure this refining process we must go through to become more like you, until we meet you  face to face with Joy and thanksgiving,....

to be able to run this race victoriously, we need to be "armed and dangerous"! Living in the light of who you are Jesus, moment by moment! Being on guard,being alert,sound mind,earnestly seeking you, in spirit and truth, because we are in a battle the enemy will never sleep! and neither should we,spiritually!

I can tell you first hand ,Satan is always crouching at our door watching where he can creep in when we are off duty spiritually! {which should be never}It seems he strikes after great victory! God's word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path,so with all the Lord gives us to run this race in him,God Help us to lean heavily on your strength, and draw from your power and your might.........Father we need your spirit to rest upon Ron and I daily,and your people who are called by your name! 

 when we  fall----and  skin our knees over and over,  Thank you Lord We have a friend in Jesus who will compassionately pick us up,soothes our wounds,heals our hurts, 

Jesus you are the one who heals us from the inside out,stripping off one by one those things that so easily trip us up! As we have asked you Lord to surface any lurking sins that we have stuffed so deep, that would hinder our personal relationship and fellowship with you, you are so good to do this! refining us through the fire and purify our hearts, continually growing and testing our faith, so we are lacking nothing...........cultivating a deep rooted satisfaction in Jesus, that we would seek only after the things that please and Glorify your Name. Being made whole daily by the holy spirits indwelling, empowering us to live according to your perfect will, having thankful, grateful hearts, Lord God may we finish well so that when we see you face to face you are pleased with what you created us to be for your great pleasure and your Glory.  Father God we can not do this on our own, we need you desperately daily to keep us in check.and keep us on track. Thank you Lord for being intentional in everything you do in our lives.