Ron woke up earlier than usual this morning, had his coffee and decided to go down to the Marina,
{this is out of character for him}
I crawled out of bed and heard the truck leaving,I thought he was going up the driveway until I saw his note!
I got my coffee, got in the word and then got a shower, thinking I would start walking into town to meet him,then I heard him come down the drive.He came in and got a shower,then we went to town for an early morning walk,
Then decided to go out on the boat.I dropped Ron off at the Boat house he wanted to get the boat ready to go I went home and got what we needed to have with us, got to the boat and we were ready to go out, all was well as we started for Friday harbor to get gas'ed up,
Ron had a "major seizure"
{I realize I will never be prepared for what happens to my man}, I watched him and talked to him helping him through the seizure, his face on his left side went into a spasm, numb,total paralysis,couldn't talk,His tongue could not form any words to speak, He kept getting worse, I quickly put the boat in neutral---- and held him crying out to the Lord to help Him, and I mean literally crying out to the Lord.--I felt helpless, scared,shaken to the very core of my being, frazzled for hours after this happened, I could not seem to get it together------Today seemed harder than other days------I pulled up to the dock we got gas and then headed off to Orcas. The boat ride has a soothing affect on Ron it calms him down and soothes his body.......... He sat down and took it easy. I on the other hand am still trying to calm my spirit down,
Dad Prayed over me. We talked about what had happened,I expressed to Ron I am not strong, I'm a scared falling apart,I'm in many ways detaching,distancing my emotions to the inevitable, not wanting to have this plan "OK if this happens I will."...... "I'm a weakling" Lord you made me and you know How weak I am,
I know He is preparing Ron and I each day from the Inside out, I will never be prepared for the day the Lord Takes My Husband home! We had a peaceful rest of the day and enjoyed what the Lord gave us. Thankful and grateful we have a God who loves us and cares for us greatly,and has prepared us a home in Glory with Him.
Joshua 1:9 This is my command--be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."
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